I should preface this post with a warning that it has hardly anything to do with running. It is essentially a journal entry and I won't blame you if you click that little X in the corner right now. :)
Do you ever feel like you don't know what you're supposed to be doing with your life?
Do you ever wonder what thoughts are true and which are lies? Because we all know, not everything we THINK is necessarily TRUE.
Are you ever unsure whether to listen to your heart or your head? And which is telling you what?
I struggle with all of these. Often!
I have practically been begging the universe to clear the clutter in my mind, open my eyes and wash away all confusion. Well, the mind is a powerful tool and the universe is a great listener. All my focus and intention have not been in vain as I've gained a tremendous amount of clarity these last few weeks.
The clouds have parted and my vision is crystal clear. Everything seems so obvious lately. Uncertainty has turned to conviction. And everything that was confusing the hell out me, now makes perfect sense.
With this new found clarity and 20/20 vision comes a shift in perspective. I love when I can feel changes on the horizon. A new season is around the corner which comes with a shift in the energy around us. I am also moving into a new home! I couldn't be more excited for a change in environment. I am unhappy with my current living situation and am thrilled to move into what I consider to be a perfectly humble abode by every definition of the word. I have been eyeing my friend Rebecca's studio since she moved in and she just so happens to be moving out right as my lease ends. How's that for timing? I love the energy of her place, the abundance of plants and the private gated patio. With the small space comes a great deal of charm and warmth and I look forward to making this place my home!
On a lighter note, I also received a little bit of clarity on my health. I've been fatigued and drained for many months now and finally decided to get a blood test. The results are in: I am once again anemic. It's time to get back on that supplement! Vegetarian and vegan friends, please remember to supplement with Iron and B12. It's so important and I have completely failed at supplementing for the past 8 months or so. Don't make the same mistakes as me. It will probably take a month or so before I start to feel normal again, and I can't wait! I miss my bountiful energy and ability to run long and strong. At least now I know how to get back there.
|I can't wait for my runs to feel easy and wonderful again.|
|just a few of my beloved ladies|
We are always seeking an understanding of this life. We want answers. We want clarity. I've come to accept that I am a student of life and this process will take a lifetime. However, in this very moment, this is what I know to be most true:
Life is all about living with purpose, appreciating the beauty and wonder around us and accepting who we are. It is also about knowing, understanding and speaking our truth and living as authentically as possible.
This is where I am at.
In ONE word, what are you seeking at the moment?
Note: I promise to return to my regular running related posts very soon!