My race is not going to happen. I have to let go-- and with certainty this time. I tried to stay optimistic, I really did. I rested, stretched, iced, foam rolled, strengthened, lengthened, drank magic potion and did a healing dance but the leg is not any better. My limp is gone so that's the upside. I can do my sexy strut again.
Even though I have my strut back I am sad to kiss running and my first marathon good-bye... for now. I will miss it like crazy.
When I'm stressed I'll instinctively reach for my Brooks and realize I should probably reach for a book instead. On the weekends I'll feel the urge to hit the trails with Angela and have to settle with yoga. When I feel deserving of that second tofutti-cutie I'll have to find self-control... Who am I kidding? I will still eat an extra tofutti-cutie.
Yes, there are plenty of other activities I can do besides running. I am aware. I have been hanging out with the elliptical a lot lately and let me tell you she is kind of dull. I'm over her and her stationary ways. I can't swim worth a darn and the spin bike is my last resort. Bleh. That's how I feel about it.
All is well, though. I will go to Physical Therapy like a good girl and do everything I need to do. I won't dwell on the fact that I am losing all these fantastic fitness gains. I can always start again.
I know life is more than just running. I also know life goes on. So here I am... living life without running. I don't want my blog to turn into "Sulk with Kate" so expect the same posts (minus everything about running). Don't leave me now, peeps! Physical therapy will be super exciting, I promise! :) I will blog about yoga and all the wonderful books I am reading as well as my culinary adventures in Kate's Kitchen. Stay tuned!
Off the subject: I looked at some of the search words that brought people to my blog. I found this one and am baffled as to how it brought them HERE.
Largest Pee Chug
Huh!? I guess I should be more baffled as to why someone is interest in chugging urine.
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I know that it probably won't help to say that everyone goes through this at some point, but it is true. It probably won't help to say that you're a stronger person for recognizing what needs to happen, rather than continue on down a path that you know will only lead you to failure.
ReplyDeleteWhat may help is telling you that it will be okay. A friend of mine recently told me "The rain comes before the rainbow". You'll get back there; you're too passionate not to. Let me know if you need anything, and stick with your plan.
It's tough to train so hard and not make it to the start line (been there, done that) but listening to your body is so much more important. Rest now, there's more training and racing in your future!
ReplyDeletepee chug? ew. i have to admire you for listening to yourself and pulling out of the race. that must have been such a hard decision. but you will come back stronger and faster and more awesome (if that's even possible :) )
ReplyDeleteAlthough I'm sure it's not easy, you are being smart about your decision. I'll certainly stick around!
ReplyDeleteI ain't goin' nowhere!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear that you have to withdraw, but I'm so glad that you made the best decision for you and your body.
Hope PT works its magic on you quickly!
I'm so sorry. It will happen though. It will! And I swear to you - when you are ready - you let me know & I'm runnin it with you.
ReplyDeleteyou are being very zen about this..or maybe that's just for us :) I usually cry, throw a tantrum, try to run anyways and make things worse. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, everyone! You're all amazing. :)
ReplyDelete@Emz - you're the sweetest!
@Amanda - I am being zen NOW, but ask my co-workers and partner and I'm sure they'll tell you otherwise. It was a process.
I had to drop out of my second race ever (only a 5K but at the time it was a big deal) due to surgery. I know how you feel. Are you not running Malibu at all or is there a chance you might run the half? 13.1 is still a big distance for being injured!
ReplyDeleteI was struck that you said "I won't dwell on the fact that I am losing all these fantastic fitness gains." I don't think you will lose your fitness gains at all. You have a solid base that won't disappear and you will become stronger in other ways that will be positively reflected when you return to running.
Good luck with your recovery! You are setting a great example of taking care of your body! :)
ReplyDeleteI hope your recovery is very quick!! I'm so sorry to hear that you have to take a break from running - but you will return to it someday, and in the meantime, maybe you will fall in love with another activity. Have you tried Pilates? (I'm sure you have.) I am completely obsessed with it, and personally prefer it over yoga. I have some DVD recommendations if you're ever interested. :)
ReplyDeletePee chug = LOL! I love looking at the search terms that people use to get to my site, too. Some of the spam comments that get caught in the spam filter are pretty hilarious, too.
xo!
So sorry, it's hard to say goodbye to a planned marathon but you'll be back in no time...at least you still have your sexy strut and that counts for a lot!!!
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself and stay positive!!
Like the others who've commented before me, I'm sorry to see you forced to abandon your goal, but remember there will now be other marathons because you chose the prudent course.
ReplyDeleteLove your post! I do believe that letting go doesn't mean your weak, but shows that your strong enough to let go..
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