Most of you probably aren't quite as crazy or chemically imbalanced as I am, but when I say running is my therapy, I mean it. The other night I suddenly felt that panicky, heart racing, anxious feeling coming on. I knew I needed to go home and just be alone. Once I got home, I put my shoes on and walked straight out the door.
No watch. No music. I just ran. It was euphoric, as it so often is.
I haven't been running as much as I normally would because I am still trying to recover from the marathon. My body feels fine and I'd love to run more. My brain tells me otherwise. I know that my muscles, tendons and ligaments all need time to fully recover before I can go out and safely run 20 miles again.
This may be the cause of my near panic-attack. Who knows. Maybe I'm just a whack-job. All I know is that my run last night was one of the most incredibly therapeutic, mind-clearing runs I have ever had. These runs stand out to me. I can specifically remember the last run like this, and I wrote about it right here.
After my run-therapy I was able to relax and unwind. I felt like myself again. Ahhh.
Can you believe I will be running the Skyline to Sea Trail Marathon in only 7 weeks? Me neither.
I haven't shared my opinion about the new Boston qualifying standards yet. I could write an entire post about how I feel but Chris K summed it up in 3 words: Fair and necessary. I couldn't agree more. Way to summarize my entire opinion, Mr. Manly Runner!
I think it is only fair that the faster runners get first dibs on entries. Someone that ran a 3:15 should definitely have a chance to run it over someone with my 3:35 finish time. That is what makes it competitive. I also think changing the standards was necessary. I originally qualified with 5 minutes to spare. By the new standards I barely qualified (by 12 seconds)! I'm glad I pushed it at the end so I can keep my BQ. :)
That said, the chances of me actually getting an entry are slim to none. I am okay with that. I don't train with the hope that I can one day run Boston. I love running. Simple as that. I suppose if someone had their heart set on Boston, it may be bad news, but is that the only reason some people run marathons? To qualify for and run the Boston Marathon? If so, I am not one to judge. I can see the allure, but I can't see Boston being the driving force behind training for a marathon. It just wouldn't cut it for me.
Oh crap. So much for being short and sweet with my opinion.
Fair and Necessary. That is all I meant to say about that.
It's rainy and gloomy in San Diego. Very unusual for our neck of the woods. Looks like I'll be running on the treadmill. I need to keep those nervous breakdowns at bay!
Note: I am not sure I know the actual definition of a nervous breakdown. I've probably never quite had one, but I feel like a spazzy lunatic. That may be a better way to phrase it.
Last weekend I was laying by our pool...
This weekend, I'll be stuck inside at the gym where I will make Ang pose for pictures in the mirror while people stare. :)
Rain, rain, go away -- I need my Vitamin D!