Tuesday, May 31, 2011

WARNING: This Post Contains Graphic Images

I am a walking, talking bundle of hormones.  I stubbed my toe this morning and bellowed “why god, whyyyy? Why me?”  Everything seems to be a bigger deal than it actually is.  My belly is protruding as if I’m pregnant, but in reality, it is just serious bloating from my over stimulated ovaries.  I am now on exercise restriction.  Being the exercise maniac that I am, I googled the medications I am taking to verify that exercise is prohibited and sure enough, it is.  I was hoping the nurses were all wrong.  Damn them for being right.

Double the belly, double the fun??
I need to clean that mirror! Yikes.

Yesterday was my last chance at exercise so Angela and I hit the beach for a run.  I have seriously awful luck sometimes and to prove it, I took quite a spill within the first mile of our run. Angela is so sweet and she sat me down in the grass and treated me like her little patient.  It was adorable but I started to cry.  I couldn’t help it.  Maybe it was the hormones or the blood dripping from my knee, but I cried like a child, although not as loudly.  I was more like a whimpering puppy.  We walked a long way to the Lifeguard station where I was bandaged up by a cute blonde.  By this time we were beyond hungry and decided to forgo the run for some food in our bellies.  We trekked all the way back to our scooter and then another couple miles to the cafĂ©.  At this point, running was out of the question.  We ate and proceeded to take a nap in the sand instead, like true beach bums.
Ouchie!  It hurt worse than it looks, I swear!

I spent most of the weekend with my nose in a book or on my yoga mat.  Ang and I did some side-by-side candle lit yoga in our living room before dinner the other night.  I highly recommend doing an at-home practice with your partner.  Lighting candles makes for an even more intimate experience.  It’s a great way to reconnect after a busy week.
Meowsers likes to nap on me while I read-- I love it!

My egg retrieval is estimated to take place on Saturday or Monday.  Please send positive vibes my way for a Saturday retrieval.  The sooner the better.  At my ultrasound this morning, it appeared that my right ovary is ahead of my left ovary in terms of follicles.  I am hoping by Thursday the leftie catches up.  I don’t know how much longer I can handle this tender, swollen belly and 2 injections a day.  It’s honestly not that bad, just uncomfortable.  I have been keeping the recipient parents in mind every single day.  I wonder what is going through their minds right now.  I can’t even imagine the anticipation!

At my Sunday ultrasound, the nurses asked me to exit through the back door because intended parents were in the waiting room.  They didn't specify whether they were my intended parents but what if they were?  My curiousity nearly led me to disobey and take a peak of the couples waiting out front.  How bizarre would that be for them to see me face to face, in 3D?  They've only seen pictures of me and have basically read my life story.  I know nothing of them, except that they're Australian and they probably have super cool accents. 

This week will involve a lot of meditation, reading and positive thoughts.  I also plan to cook every single night to keep me occupied when I would usually be running.  I have a bazillion vegetables loaded up in the kitchen ready for me to have my way with them. 

Run for me this week, since I can't.  Enjoy every single stride!

35 comments:

  1. wow that knee looks like it hurt! so are you going to have a baby for someone? thats really thoughtful of you. good luck with everything!

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  2. I love your spiritual intentions, your relationship with Angela, the candles, your attitude.

    That is one cute belly.

    We are twins. I banged up my knee too on Saturday when I fell off the bike and I cried but I didn't get the Anglela or lifegaurd treatment. Sigh

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  3. oh, that knee looks painful! ouch. that is totally something that would happen to me.

    you sound like the perfect egg donor. if you ever want to give surrogacy a try, let me know!

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  4. also, I wish my bell were that tiny!!

    no. no surrogacy for me. I would like to have a bio kid, but not be pg. My back is just...well shit, really. I'm just scared to do it and scared to get off my meds. I might decide to get pg. I waffle. But I'm 30.5 and have been married 8 yrs, so I kind of need to get on it! I kind of just want someone to either offer to do it for me (hah, unlikely) or to just give me a baby (even more unlikely!)

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  5. hahahahaha! you have a nearly flat belly, girl! I'm not laughing about your boo-boo or your discomforts... just the "belly protruding" statement :)

    Hoping the retrieval goes perfectly and the hormones aren't too bad between now and then :)

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  6. Hormones like that are a bear, I'm sure! That's what pregnancy is like for nine months. Good times!

    I can't imagine how hard it was not to peak and see who the parents are going to be! You have good discipline girlie!

    And I LOVE it when one of my kitties curls up on my lap. So sweet.

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  7. Aweeee girl!! I hope you don't go too stir crazy not being able to exercise...I know I would! That reminds me of when i got my wisdom teeth out!

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  8. awwww! You'll be right as rain soon enough my dear!

    I am committing to my training plan for the month of June and I will dedicate this first week to you! Then when you're in LA for Pride, we will do a long run together because you'll be a-ok by then!

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  9. aww friend...my runs this week are for you. xx

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  10. Good luck! You're doing something awesome. Is it bad that the title of this post made me want to read it even more?

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  11. Ohhh poor baby! That knee looks really bad...Really it does. I am so comforted to know that Ang is there by your side through good times and bad. I am so proud of you for all that you are and all that you do...

    And btw...your tummy is super tiny!! (Sorry but it is tiny and so cute!)

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  12. wow what an incredible experience this all is! i can't even imagine, but it seems pretty awesome to me : ) hope you start feeling better soon and good luck!

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  13. Naps in the sand are the best. I have done couples yoga before and it's amazing. Hope your knee heals up and your belly starts to feel better. Went for a run today for you :)

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  14. Good luck on Saturday.. i'm sending good vibes your way. Sorry about the knee. Hey, we've all been there. Keep your chin up.

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  15. I would love to run for you this week but as you know my broken toe is not allowing that. I will however go out for some short runs on Saturday and Sunday to try and figure out if a shoe caused my fracture during Comrades. Sounds like you are quite bashed up yourself. All the best for everything this week, I think you are doing a wonderful thing for those parents.

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  16. what a wonderful thing for you to be doing - I am enormously impressed with you. Hope it's all gone well and sorry for my absence from the blogosphere - am going to try to be back soon!

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  17. wow, you are so amazing for doing this! no fun with the belly... but i feel you on that. i have had some digestive issues that i know all too well how you are feeling. it will be over soon though!

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