Friday, April 20, 2012

A Bad Week and a Gratitude Journal

It's Friday!  Thank goodness.  It has been a long week despite the fact that I had Monday off.  I am having one of those weeks where I lack confidence and feel like being completely alone.  I don't know where these feelings stem from but they seem to come out of nowhere.  I go into hibernation mode and prefer to go straight home after the gym and crawl into bed rather than be social.  I missed a friend's birthday party, and I skipped out on my favorite night of the month: book club night!  I'm a nerd, in case you haven't noticed.  I layed in bed watching season 2 of Downton Abbey and reading A Home at the End of the World (which is fantastic, by the way).  I even canceled my plans to go to LA this weekend, opting for a relaxing weekend at home in San Diego instead.

Maybe these crummy feelings are in part due to my foot issues.  I just started running again and within a a week or so, my "good" foot suddenly started hurting.  I had finally experienced that running euphoria that I'd missed so terribly, and was forced to stop so abruptly.  I am just fed up with injury.  I don't feel like myself when I can't run.  I really don't mean for this to be a pity party or a bitch fest, I'm just having a rough week.

Do any of you have really bad weeks where you would rather curl up with a book than see anyone?  I always value my alone time but I've taken that to a new level this week.

In an effort to focus on the positive, I decided to start a gratitude journal.  Many of you have these and write in them daily.  Major props to you!  A few of my co-workers are taking part in a daily gratitude challenge, which has been inspiring to follow.  I am a little late in the game, and I don't plan on making this a structured routine, but I thought now was the perfect time to start recording some of the little things in life that I appreciate.

I am grateful for...

An amazing, supportive partner that realizes I am having a bad week and texts me "you are beautiful" in the morning.  :)

My mom who has taught me what unconditional love is and my angelic 14 year old sister.

Snuggling with brand new babies like this one.

Mantras that remind me to love myself first.

My brand new thermos that keeps my coffee warm for hours!
(it's the little things...)

The best snuggle buddy a girl could ask for.

What are you grateful for this week?